Grab your knitting needles and come relax with me.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Letting Go
I am an admitted control freak (on a related note I also have trust issues). My friends and family have been trying to get me to use test knitters. You knit slow; why don't you farm out some of your designs that are ready to go? And I have always made excuses for why not. All sorts of lame and sad, pitiful excuses that are too embarrassing to even detail. But finally the knitting bunnies have well and truly begun to over run me. So I decided to take the leap of faith and put my newly hatched babies into others hands.
And it is STILL freaking me out. Part of me hates it because the patterns aren't totally ironed out--there's always a tweak I need to do before it's finalised. So my test knitters are seeing my naked underbelly (sort to speak)-dude totally not comfortable with that. Part of me wonders are they doing it right???? Because ya know no one can do it right but me...(yeah ego? me never.) But DUDE, these two test knitters are awesome, talented knitters.
Why worry?
Well because I can and do. I need a chill pill. It will be wonderful and I need to stop being an arsehole.